Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Excess weight has been my thorn, not just in my side, but on every side - back, front, middle, etc. It has caused a great deal of sadness, insecurity, and fear in my life, robbing me of the full life I desire.
I wish I could say that losing the weight has been my fervent prayer. In all honesty, I have probably tried everything but praying it away. Deep down, it has been a prayer request, but one I assumed would still be my responsibility to fulfill.
In November of 2008, the Lord allowed me to have lap band surgery as a tool for losing this excess weight once and for all. He didn't miraculously remove the thorn. However, He has been lessening its destruction in my life as I become more healthy and alive. Now, 47.5 pounds lighter, I see the all-important lessons I needed to learn through this process that I might not have learned had I been skinny all along.